Sharon's Corner

Hello? Is anyone there? Can you hear me? I've given you the answer already, and you should now know what to do. Or do my words fall on deaf years? Your vacant expression tells me you haven't heard my voice. Maybe it's because you refuse to hear my voice. I can't blame you; I can't fix you; I can only keep trying to tell you. No matter how loud I scream, you will not hear me. Can you not see sadness in me when I try and talk to you?

I stand with my life before me,
With my experiences behind.

I stand on the edge of a cliff,
Looking out to the beyond.

I can see the peaks of mountains,
And the shadowed-valleys of below.

I can see the plains and rocky cliffs,
And the forest-covered hills.

I can hear the birds chirping,
And the wild creatures roar.

I can smell the morning scent,
And the air after a thunderstorm.

I walk the path before me,
Knowing where it leads.

I understand the blessings,
And the trials that I face.

I can complain about the rocks and stones,
Or the creatures that stalk the night.

Or I can enjoy the morning sunrise,
And everything in my sight.

I know I've complained much in the past,
About the path I walked.

But from this step forward,
I'll treasure every moment's thought.

-Sharon, Mar 15, 2009

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I know in the past I've complained a lot. I've complained about relationship issues, school, my lack of grades, and worrying about getting into grad school. I forgot to enjoy what I'm studying; and I became too focus on my grades. I've tutored this term, and I told my students to have fun and think of a midterm as an opportunity to show off what they've learned.

In any case, I remembered this myself. While in school, I've always been surrounded by exceedingly smart people who get 99s 100s in everything they take.

This term, instead of worrying whether I get 79 or 89, I'm going to focus on learning the material and having fun. Enjoying what you do is the most important. I was reminded of that in PMATH 340 in the Winter of 2008. And again, I'm reminded of that in PMATH 336 in 2009.

I think, we take the blessings we have foregranted sometimes. We forget that we must account for the talents that were entrusted to us at the beginning of our existence.

In any case, as Kurosaki Ichigo said at some point "I've found my resolve".

-Sharon

I doubt,
I can ever find the words,
To express the effect,
You've had on me.

I can string together sentences,
And put words in their proper place.
But even then,
I cannot interlace feelings,
In the letters of the words
That I speak and I write.

I have neither the confidence,
Nor the courage,
To try to tell you again.

So I write this,
Hoping that you'll stumble on this
One day, and realize,
Exactly how much you mean to me.

Though others try,
To engrave themselves in my memory,
Or claim titles in my history,
No matter what they do,
It's memories of you,
That I'll carry on.

Though we may be far in distance,
Though we may be apart,
It's your kindness,
Your influence,
Our memories,
That I will carry in my heart.

-Sharon

Sometimes, I feel stressed. So many things to deal with, and so little time. I watch as the clock ticks away, slowly sapping seconds of my life. I can't do a thing about it though; time passes; it walks; it runs. And there is not a single thing I can do about it. I try to enjoy every fleeting second, but there are so many things I want to do, and I have only so much time.

I want to read poetry and literature. I want to play and listen to music. I want to learn a new language. But, I'm always stuck with the mundane tasks of life; struggling to get through the next day.

Guys are jerks. Period. That is all.

Merry Christmas one and all! I know it's a little late because it's officially boxing day right now... but Merry Christmas nonetheless! :)

Hope everyone has a wonderful new year!!!

"Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me,
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break,
I crave, I love, I’ve waited long enough,
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

I laugh, I feel, I make believe it’s real,
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees,
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man,
I try as hard as I can.

Am I not pretty enough?
Is my heart too broken?
Do I cry too much?
Am I too outspoken?
Don’t I make you laugh?
Should I try it harder?
Why do you see right through me?

Why do you see, why do you see, why do you see right through me?"

Am I not pretty enough -- Kasey Chambers

Sometimes, when things don't go our way, we need to remember that we must keep God at the center of our lives. Sometimes, our faith is being tested. Always remember that one you've accepted Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Saviour, you'll always have the Holy Spirit with you, and the Holy Spirit is always guiding you... sometimes, we may not hear it because we're not willing or too emotional to listen.

Hi Everyone,

well, it seems that I'm back at UW, and my term is well underway. This term, it seems that I have a ton of assignments and quizzes to do. I'm enjoying UWP so far, so it's good. It's a nice change from SJU. I also joined the UW Choir this term, and it's nice to have something to getaway to on Tuesday nights

Anyways, that's all for now.

Till next time,

-Sharon

It's been awhile since I've posted a public entry... so here goes:

Anyways, for anyone who's been in Ontario this past weekend, he or she would know that it was extremely hot. The heat was unbearable yesterday, but the air conditioning wasn't on... :( ... I spent 2 hours switching the fan on only to determine that it was too noisy for me to sleep. If I turned the fan off, it was too hot for me to sleep. So, I was in this infinite loop of turning the fan on and off all night. Hence, I'm really tired right now, and I probably should go to bed... but my room is still stifling. *sigh*

Have I experienced road rage? Of course not! I don't even have a license to drive on the road by myself... I like walking though, especially in this weather :)

The most common compliment I receive is always "OMG! I love your earrings"... which means I have good taste in earrings I guess....:P

Winter break is over, and I'm in school again! Yay! For some odd reason, I don't feel excited this term. I'm usually ecstatic when a new term begins, but for some reason, I don't feel that excitement this time around.

Maybe it's because I'm taking CS 350... and I know I'm going to be in for inevitable doom. Oh dear... :( ...Maybe it's because I know I'm not going to have certain people around me anymore. I was so used to having this one person be around me for the last 6-7 years, and this is the first time where he isn't around me. I think I take for granted the people around me sometimes. I guess that saying "You don't know what you have until it's gone" can apply in this case.

Other than that, I'm bored... I have very few things to do, and I didn't have class today. I have 4.5 hours tomorrow, so I'm not exactly looking forward to it :P ... blah...

For the first time since I started university, I kind of wish I was on co-op. This way, I would be at home, eating yummy food, hanging out with high school friends, and playing wii till the early hours of morning.

I forgot StarCraft and WarCraft at home. I keep telling myself that I'm going to play those games, and then I leave them at home. I guess it's for the best since I need to study this term... but GAHH!!!!

I need to find other things to do this term as well. Maybe I'll join some clubs or do some volunteering. I have no idea how my bid for CS Rep went; but, I guess that happens when you're on co-op eh?

Anyways,
Till Next Time!
-Share

Well, it's been awhile since I've updated.  A lot of time has passed since the last update... I finished my first co-op term at Environment Canada, and I've begun classes at Waterloo this term.  I seriously hope that my marks go up this semester.  Right now, all of my classes are difficult; however, they are a lot more fun than business.  I haven't fallen asleep in a class yet, so it's a good sign.  But since I'm working on a computer science assignment right now, I'll keep this entry short.

Till Next Time,

Sharon